Saturday, June 27, 2020

Get-together again


Sunday, 21 June 2020


It was beginning of March since MCO started l last saw my darling until this Sunday (21/6) My heart was full of happiness and joy as we can go out again.

Earlier one night, he asked if I want to go to Penang Hill together with Teik and his family, I agreed. My heart was full of trilled as I haven’t been there since 2012.

My darling fetched around 11 am and we stopped over at the recycle center. Together in Teik's car, we headed to Penang Hill. It was really good to see the road is full of vehicles again.

When we headed to Air Itam road towards to Penang Hill. My goodness! There was a long queue of cars going on that road. We follow the queue of cars until near outside Penang Hill and saw lots of people going in.  We drove near U-turn road and turn back. I was slightly disappointed as we unable to go up the hill

So we decided to go to Tesco Jelutong. When we arrived at the parking lot, there were only a few cars. We manage to park at the OKU parking lot. We straight went up to the 2nd floor, the grocery dept.

As we enter there was a long queue to take everyone's tempreture and write down our names (due to MCO). A few policemen were there to guard the place. 
I was glad I bought some of the items I wanted.

After buying everything, we went to Medan Selera Food Court for lunch. All the tables were slightly far apart and two persons were allowed to use one table. My darling and I shared a plate of hot mee.

After our meal, we went back to the center and enjoy the afternoon chit-chatting. It was a nice time gathering again.  Though we didn't manage to go to Penang Hill, spending our time in Tesco and at the center was enjoyable enough.





Friday, June 26, 2020

My New Set Of Teeth


Friday, 19 June 2020


Since two months ago until today I have written about the progress of my dental. I'm happy today is the last day of my dental in Adventist Hosp.

When Janice drop me at the lobby, the regular staff came to push me. When I reach the reception area, there were only a few people waiting.

Within 5mins of waiting, a Malay nurse came to push me in. What Dr. Edric did to me was fix and adjust my new denture. He taught me how to fix and take it out in the correct way. Around 15mins I was out of his room. The nurse pushed to the counter area. The reception staff told me I can go back as there was no payment done

I slowly wheel myself down to the lobby. While waiting for Janice, I felt my denture was not good condition, I quickly called the dental staff and told her my problem. At the same time, Janice arrived. I told her I need to see the Dr. again. I wheel myself up and I straight went to Dr. Edrid's room.

He was attending to another patient. I called him and as he saw me, he came out and adjust my denture. 

When I wheeled myself near the lift, Janice was waiting there. She pushed me to the carpark. Luckily I got my denture done before I went home.

Thank God for a set new of denture. I pray and hope I need not have to go that often again.



Thursday, June 25, 2020

Numb wrists


Wednesday, 17 June 2020


Since last month I made an appointment with Neurologies Dept. (104) Today at 9.30 am, Denis and Janice drop at the main lobby and Janice wheel me up to the 1st floor where Neuro Dept. and left me there alone.

When I reached the front counter, I gave the letter to the staff nurse and she asked me to wait. There were some people waiting there too for their name to be called. Within 15mins a male staff came to register my name and gave me a number.

After waiting a while, the same staff asked me to go inside the waiting room. There were many people waiting for the doctors to call them.  It was quite some time as I waited for the doctor to call me. Patients were going and out of the doctor's room.

I prayed that I will have a good doctor. Nearly half an hour of waiting, a Chinese lady doctor called me in. She asked me about my problems, I told my hands and wrist is numb and pricking feelings. She asked me about my sickness and I told her.

Later I realized she didn't know my diagnoses, I told her I have my appointment card at the counter. Within a while, a nurse brought my card and file to her.

She told me due to my sickness, as time goes by my body limbs will get weaker. The numbness of my hands/wrist is due to my nerves. She explained to me many things about my body. I was glad she gave me another six months of my medication for me.

She spent quite a long time with me until when I left the doctor's room, there were no more one in the waiting room.

I slowly wheeled myself out and down near to the lobby. At the same time, I told Janice I have finished. When I reached the lobby, I was quite tired. A Chinese lady who saw me offer to pushed me near  the carpark.

There were many cars fetching their family members. The lady waited for me until Janice arrived. Luckily she arrives within a short while.

Thank God that everything was over that morning.

Dear God thank you for giving me a good doctor who explained my problem to me and sending a kind lady to help me.



Thursday, June 18, 2020

Wednesday, June 17, 2020

Enemies are back


Monday, 15 June 2020


The scariest thing of my life is back again!  Since the beginning of this month, my spasm started attacking me again.  When it came, I thought it lasted only a day. Never release it slowly attack me more day by day. 

Since then, mostly my left leg muscle keeps pulling and my body and legs become very stiff. I have difficulty in sitting and pushing my wheelchair too. My movement becomes very slow.

It's very frustrating as it kept me from doing more things that I intend to do. When my spasm attacks me, it draws the strength out from my body and I become tired and weaker.

At the same time, I have low mode and feels very tired though I cannot do much throughout the day.

Dear God, please take away my spasm
Please give me more strength to do daily things
Dear God, please do help me!

Tuesday, June 16, 2020

Only five minutes


Wednesday, 10 June 2020




One week past so fast and my dental day is here again. My appointment is at 11 am when I arrived there were many people at the reception area. I thought I'm able to collect my denture today, but again it turns out otherwise.

While waiting quite long at the reception area I wrote my journal. The nurse called my name and wheeled me in. I thought I have to transfer to the chair but luckily did not.  What Dr. Edric did was only measure/fit in my denture. It took only 5mins. I still unable to collect my denture, instead I have come again another week.

It's tiring to and fro weekly to the dental.  After I'm out of the room, the nurse pushed me to the front counter. I waited quite long for my turn to make an appointment as others were queuing up to make payment. 

After I got the appointment date, I wheel myself down to the main lobby. Luckily Janice arrived at the same time a staff saw me and pushed me to our car.

Monday, June 15, 2020

Met an angel

Tuesday, 9 June 2020

Today is the first day of Physio after the MCO, the last time I went was 3 months ago. I'm really happy that I can start exercises again.

Janice drop me alone in the main lobby (we don't allow mum to follow me due to the Covid)

Since the last week, I don't have much strength. I asked God to give me the strength to push myself to the Physio Dept.

From the lobby, I slowly pushed myself to Physio. When entering the reception area, I saw some changes as there's a divider in the middle to go in out.

Many people waiting in the reception area all with face masks. Each of us has to register and take our temperature. I waited around 20mins before my no was called. I pushed myself inside and I saw many changes. All the staff tables were far apart and the equipment was moved to another side. 

I didn't see En. Mat, my regular therapy, instead a Malay lady called me. I thought of a change of therapy again, but she told me he was on leave. She took his place. I did two of my regular exercises. There were only a few patients doing their exercises.

After my hands exercise, I took my appointment date and left Physio Dept.  
I asked God to give strength to push myself to OT Dept. as it was quite far.  As I pushed myself halfway, to my surprised, a hospital male staff came to push me. He asked me where am I going, and he pushed me until outside OT Dept. 

OT reception area has only a few patients. Without waiting I was given a number and I went to the therapy room. My regular therapies weren't in, instead, a Chinese lady therapy attended to me. She gave me a few hand activities to do. 

Janice fetched around  1 pm. I was happy I managed to do my exercises 

Dear God thank you for sending an angel to help in time of difficulties.




Tuesday, June 09, 2020

DAPG - Unable To Do Shopping Freely



Wednesday, 10 June 2020


DAPG - Unable To Do Shopping Freely



Low mood


Monday, 8 June 2020


Since last week, I've felt low mood, weak and tired. I cannot concentrate on doing one thing, instead the whole day I'm doing many things. At the end of the day, I accomplished nothing.

I have written a few write-up halfway, but unable to finish them. I wanted to continue but my mind somehow is blank. I will slowly continue to write 

I really feel very terrible when I having this mood. I've been active for quite some time, yet this low mood came back again.


Dear God, please help me to be strong and active again so I can continue my writing and daily activities.




Friday, June 05, 2020

DAPG- ATM-Inaccessible for wheelchair users


Friday, 5 June 2020



DAPG- ATM-Inaccessible for wheelchair users





An Agony


Wednesday, 3 June 2020



Today is the second treatment for my root canal.  I thought it was only filing up the root canal only, Never did I know it was a long procedure. 

My appointment was at 10.30 am, When I reached the dental dept., I was surprised there were only a few people. I straight went to the restroom to ease myself. It's difficult if the doctor my treatment teeth halfway, I need to ease myself. That's a problem and tiring to get up and down the chair.

When I came out of the restroom, the nurse was waiting for me (thank God I need not have to wait). I thought today there will not be any injection done but I was wrong again. The first thing after I lye down on the chair, an injection was given to me. Luckily, it was only slight pain.

I'm unable to describe the procedure, but it took around one and a half hours.  Halfway through it, the doctor asks me to go for an x-ray. I have to get down from the chair again with the help of the nurse. She straight wheeled me to the x-ray room. Luckily, there was no one inside. The staff immediately attended to me.

Even though, lying on the chair yet my neck was in pain but have to bear it up.  At the same time, I wasn't allowed to close my mouth the whole time, and jaw was so painful. I felt like I was going through surgery and I was under the air con whole time and my limbs felt so cold. 

Earlier before started, I told Dr. Edric I will do denture with him. So the procedure ends, he did a mold for my upper teeth. Another time I have to go again to fix my denture 

It was real agony during that whole time. I felt a great relief after it was done. 

The nurse wheeled me to the reception area. When the time to pay the bill, I have some problem with the payment. I called Janice for help, within 15mins she came and we settled the bill.

Thank God everything was over that morning. I felt so relieved. 


Monday, June 01, 2020

Spasm


Sunday, 31 May 2020


Today like any other Sundays, I didn't do anything much throughout the day. But my body wasn't feeling good at all and I have some fear in me. My spasm is attacking me again after it left me for the past two years. This is my greatest fear as it’s preventing me from doing my daily things

The whole of my left leg muscle is so tight and keeps pulling me. The nerve also attacked my body limbs and my movement is very slow in doing. I feel not active at all and feel very tired.

No one knows the difficulties I feel.  I, myself know the terrible feeling inside my body.

Dear God, please take away the spasm inside me, so that I can be strong and do everything again. Please take away my fear too.

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