Morning at Psychiatrist Department

Tuesday, 8 December 2020

It’s has been 3 months since my last follow up with my Psychiatrist till today (8/12). Denis drops me while Janice wheeled me up to the dept. When I arrived there around 10 am, there were many people already waiting. 

At the same time, my Neuro medication has finished, and need to have a new follow-up. After Janice left me, she went to the Neuro dept (104) to take a new medication chit from the doctor and collect them in the pharmacy

On my side, I waited for nearly half an hour before the counter staff called my name to take blood pressure. When I pushed myself to the back room, few people were queueing in front of me. There was only one staff taking blood pressure for all the patients.

I came back outside, I saw my place was taken up by a few elderly people on the wheelchair. So, I stay behind the other wheelchairs.

While waiting for the doctor to call me, I observed the people there. I was unable to write my journal on my hp due to my eye problem.

When the doctor called my name, I was happy to see the same doctor who saw me the last time. She is a good, kind Malay doctor. When I was in her room, she asked me about my thyroid and the doctor I have seen. She told me my thyroid can upset my mood too.

After she has seen my mood is quite stable, she continue my present medication at the same dosage. Since everything was ok, I didn't stay long in her room. She wrote medication chit for me and helped to wheel me out.

As I pushed myself out to the corridor, a kind Chinese lady asked me if I help and she pushed me near to the lift. I thank God for sending someone to help.

After I went down and straight wheeled to the lobby. I took a Grab car home, thank God He gave me a good driver to help me into the car.

In the afternoon Janice collects my medication for me.

 Thank you, God for helping me the whole morning.

Dream 1 - Marriage Life

 

Wednesday, 2 December 2020

 

In 1997 when I started writing, I wrote about my dreams. I felt happy as some of them came true, but some of them didn't.  So I accepted it.

Now I have a few other dreams too :

Since my younger day, when I saw my cousins and disabled friends got married. It has always been my dream to be a bride wearing a white beautiful wedding gown, but sadly it would never come to reality.

Even though I have a partner for the past 16 years, he can only be my companion. Due to some of his personal problems., we will never able to get married. Even though we cannot get married, I thank God for bringing him into my life. He is a great guy, as he's willing to accept me as his partner. He accepted me for who I am.

He cares, understanding, and patient towards my condition and he knows how to handle me when my spasm attacks me. Even he has his bad side, I accepted it as everyone has their good and bad side. We always share everything openly so we understand each other better.

I can say I'm quite sad as I won't able to get married, but nothing can be done. I have to accept it.