Boccia training

I’m happy that Boccia training is back. I got the chance to go for practice after a year of rest. I’m really excited that this year there are many tournaments. It will be an interesting year for sports people.

Our training is held in the Spastic Centre twice a week – Tuesday and Thursday afternoon 3.30pm-5.30pm. This week we have three days of practice as our coach is free to train us.

I follow a friend of mine in wheelchair who is staying in Cheshire Home to our centre. Since Cheshire Home is quite near my house, my dad dropped me in the home and I follow their van and my dad will pick me back from the Spastic Centre.

I’m happy whenever there is Boccia training as I like going for tournaments.

My latest pattern

This is my latest cross-stitch. Seeing the pattern seem very easy as there were only three colour. It took me a lot of patient to do this pattern. After sewing the whole thing, I had to undo it because I got lost and didn't follow the pattern. I nearly gave up, but I couldn't as I wanted to see the outcome of it.

I asked my niece Sherine to create the outer pattern for me. She is very good in her artwork, so she helped during her one month holiday.

Goodbye 2009

This year has passed again with a blink of an eye. Since November 2008 till April 2009, I was in KL Beautiful Gate Centre. Though life there was very tough, it taught me to be a tougher person physically, emotionally and spiritually. I have learned that living away from family was not easy thing as I have to do most of thing myself and certain things I have to rely on peoples’ help. Though I have only one good friend who helped me a lot, I was happy knowing other disabled friends and learn about their different behavior and attitude

There were many activities and programs for all the trainees. It was bitter sweet moments for me there and it also gave me a chance to see part of KL lifestyle. I was very sad when I left there due to my body condition.

In May another dream of mine came true as I went to Lourdes. I never thought this would happen as it was a long journey, but with God’s help I made it through. It was the most peaceful I have ever been. Though it was a week journey and our stay was only four day. I witness so many things which I have seen before. I truly appreciate the organizers who organize this trip who took for the old, the disabled and the parishioner for the Church of Immaculate Conception. It will be a dream that I will always remember.

Since I came back from Lourdes, I tried to find a job, but I failed. I applied to many places and asked many people but there were no news. It make me feel very frustrated, discouraged, disappointed and angry with myself. I occupied myself at home with cross-stitch, writing and playing games on facebook. Without some income, I feel so terrible, but nothing can be done. I prayed very hard for God to lead me the way.

I pray that 2010 will be a better year for me. And it will be a more challenging year for me. I also pray that I will not give up in achieving my dreams.

To all my friends who support and encouraging me. Thank you… And to my darling, thank you for being there for me and giving me a listening ear whenever I have problems.

When waves are low

I have neglected my “ baby” for the past few months. There is a reason to it. It was because I was feeling very down, so I didn’t want to write too many negative things. Now, I feeling better and am back to my normal self. Sometimes when I think of the past, it made me sad, but I tried my best to ignore it by making myself busy.

I’m happy for the past three months I finished two pieces of my cross-stitch (cushion covers). I have decided not to frame them because if I frame it would be more expensive. Now I’m doing a smaller piece of pattern which I hope to finish soon.

I’m also happy that both my articles came out in the CHALLENGES magazine. I waited for a year before my articles came out and I feel very happy and proud of myself when I saw my stories and photos in the magazine. I’m glad my afford of writing wasn’t a waste of my time. At least I can comfort myself that I have achieved something.

Now I'm keeping myself busy with my cross-stitch, writing and few other things that day and night passes so fast. Now it’s already December. Before we know it, it’s Christmas and New Year.

Thank you all my dear friends for being with me when the waves in my life was very low.
I appreciated it a lot. You kept my spirit going without giving up.

Jobless

It’s very frustrating in facing life when you are jobless. It has been a year since I left my previous job. I failed in my training in Kuala Lumpur because of my body condition. That made me more frustrated as I couldn’t accomplish what I have desired instead I have turn back to where I begin. How I wish I could stay longer there, but it wasn’t God’s will. I also feel very sad that I couldn’t go back there again.

I wish God will give me a chance to work again. I have been applying for a jobs but till now I haven’t receive any news. I really hope God will give me a job soon. But for now I’m keeping myself busy with my cross-stitch, writing etc.

I was quite disappointed when none of my friends whom I responded to my email me about Ebay Online (home business) . I was really dishearten as I felt no one was supporting me.

I can say one good thing, I have started a new pattern of cross-stitch for cushion cover.

I still have to go on with life despite all these feeling.

Months after months

Tomorrow is the last day of the month. I can’t believe every month flies so fast without waiting for anyone. I didn’t put any post this month as I was busy building another blog.

I started new home business - selling and buying things in Ebay. A friend of mine came to teach and everyday I learned it myself. This month I bought two things just to test my knowledge in buying things online. I haven’t start selling yet as I have to learn to buy and manage the things inside Ebay.

Beginning of this month, my uncle from Kuala Lumpur brought all my things back from Beautiful Gate Centre including my two wheelchairs. I’m happy that I got a light weight wheelchair from the Welfare in Kuala Lumpur.

I felt sad that I couldn’t make it longer in Kuala Lumpur. Living away from home is very different as I could make my own decision what I wanted without anyone stopping me. But it was specially tough as I have spasm which attacked me very often due to a lot of strain. My heart wasn’t ready to come home but my body couldn’t take it anymore. So I pray and hope I made the right decision to come home.

I’m very happy that I finished my cross-stitch cushion covers two days ago. It took me few years to accomplish it and when I saw them, you cannot feel how happy I was.

I thank God for a family who loves me and my close friends who care for me and a boyfriend who love me. This month has come to a close. I pray that next month will be another good month.

My activities in KL

This was the activities during my stay in Kuala Lumpur the past 6 months.

The cell group celebrated Ivy's birthday in an Italian Restaurant

Me & Yah Mei

MPPJ Night Fair

Lunch with CIMB group

USJ Family Day - Food & Fun Fair

Carrfour in one shopping mall just opened and they gave some of my disabled friends and I RM10 cupon.