Increase of Medication

Thursday, 24 Sept 2020

 

 A month has passed since my last follow up and I went again on 24/9 morning.

Janice dropped me and pushed up to Psychiatrist Dept and left me there. She helps me drop my card in the box. There weren't many people on that day.

Around 20mins, the staff at the counter called my name to take blood pressure. I wheeled to the back of the room. There were three to four persons before me. After finishing my pressure test, I went back to the front.

As the front door of the doctor's room was open, I saw my doctor was discussing another doctor. After that, my name was called. A Malay lady doctor (I believe she was the head of doctor as she has her room) saw me. She went through my file and blood test paper. She told me my thyroid can lead to having a low mood. I also told her, I won't be going to the counseling anymore as it was a too-short time and I have other check-ups to go too. She also increases slightly my depression medication. I was in her room for around half-hour.

After I left, I pushed myself down to the lobby but I didn't take my medicine as needed to queue up. I called Janice to fetch me. At that time when I was in the lobby, there were so many cars fetching their family members. All the cars jam up in the lobby, which made Janice slow in fetching me.

At last, I saw her. Thank you, God, for the morning.

 

 

Low Mood

Wednesday, 16 Sept 2020

 

Since the beginning of this month, I don't have the mood to write even though I wanted to express my feelings/thoughts into words. I have many things in mind I say, but I cannot put in writing.

At the same time, my twisted ankle gave me so much terrible pain. The pain made me very weak and I felt very tired the whole day.

Every single day, I felt so terrible. My ankle was swollen and painful, I completely have no mood. What I did were only some minor daily things. 

Even though I have the pain, I still went out to my therapy, check-up, outing as usual. I slowly get into the car.

Life has to go on despite on whatever happens

 

Visit Aunty’s Apartment

Sunday, 25 August 2020

                                       

I went out with my darling to their center and had lunch there. Teik and my darling cooked something different. It was enjoyable to be with them. Even though I sat quietly, but hearing them talking was nice enough. 

After lunch, we invited Teik and her daughter to check out my late aunt's empty apartment on the 1^st floor in Tanjung Tokong. Janice told me we can spend weekends there if my darling and Teik are free. The apartment has two rooms. The main thing was using the main room toilet. My darling tries pushed my wheelchair into the toilet/bathroom, it was quite narrow, but luckily my small wheelchair managed to get in. Other than that, I could manage the whole place.

We spent around 2 hours there chatting, then we went to Tesco (as it was very nearby the apartment. We bought a few things and headed back to their center.  After rested a while, my darling drops me home.

 

 

Twisted Ankle

 Saturday, 5 Sept 2020

 

On Saturday (5/9) supposed to be an ordinary morning as I went to Boccia training to pass a few letters to my coach and see my friends. 

As usual, I booked a Grab car. It was an Indian driver who fetched me. With mum's help, I stand and hold the door of the car to get in. I couldn't balance myself and I fell inside the car seat. While I fell, I twisted my right ankle badly and hit my chin onto the car. The terrible pain on my ankle got onto my whole body that I completely couldn't move. The driver helps me into the car seat.

I thought of not going anymore, but since I needed to pass my letter to my coach I continue going even with the terrible pain.

When I went there, I completely have no mood due to pain. I played a few games with my friends and talked to them. After two hours I went back coach's help getting into another Grab car.

Counseling Seassion

 

Thursday 3 September 2020

 

After I saw my Psychiatrists doctor on 25/8 and got a letter to the Counseling Dept. I went to a new dept. which was in Block D.  Janice drop and pushed up to the 2nd floor and showed me the place. It was a small nurse room with two persons who inquire about things. 

After a while when I was in the nurse room, she pushed me to the Counseling room and asked me to wait. Within five minutes, a Malay lady (counselor) came in and she told me about the procedure asked me the sign the form.

The lady was friendly and a pleasant person. She talked and advised me not to see/think about the negative side of my life, but think about the happy memories which I had. She only gave me half an hour of her time. She is the only person in charge of counseling. There are a lot of other patients' to see her.

After finished, I wheel myself down to the ground and waited for Janice to fetch me.

After I came back, I feel the time was too short as I all the way go yet get half an hour counseling time.

 

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Agony Starts Again

Wednesday, 2 September 2020 

It has been four months since I last went to Adventist Hospital for the treatment of my teeth. Since the past week, my left bottom tooth started having pain again. From then on, the pain becomes more severe that I have to call the dental dept. for an appointment. Luckily they managed to give me on 2/9 morning.

My appointment was at 10 am, when I reached the lobby, I saw the regular Chinese staff and he pushed me up. I was at the dental reception area within a few minutes, the regular nurse came to push me into the room. 

It was quite a tiring task climbing up the chair even with the nurse's help. When Dr. Edric check my teeth and told me that my molar tooth has gone inside the root. He needs an x-ray, so with the nurse's help, I had to get down the chair again.

There was no patient in the x-ray room, so a few minutes of waiting outside, the nurse pushed me in. It was so terrible when the staff put a root inside my mouth for the x-ray. I felt like vomiting. Luckily within minutes, it was over.

After I got back and Dr. saw my x-ray, he gave me a few options about my tooth. Extract my tooth and fix a denture or can do root canal procedures. Because my tooth was in pain, I asked him to extract it. When he gave me an injection, my body was tense up again. I tried my best to relax.

It was difficult and hard to extract my tooth. But, Dr.took sometime to pull it out. At last, the agony was over. Even though the whole procedure was only an hour, but I felt it was longer than that.

Thank you, God, for helping me throughout my tooth extraction.

 

Broken Hearted

 Friday, 21 August 2020   

Boccia has been my favorite sport/game since 2000 when I started playing. I was happy to participate in all tournaments.

On 12 August, my Boccia coach gave me the news that Malaysia Sukan Negara (MSN) they have limited the age to 45 years of age for all athletes. My heart completely broke down and tears drop down on my cheek. It was the saddest news as I'm over age and I'm not able to play in any competition anymore.

That few days before my coach inform me, I ordered a set of Boccia ball from Denmark (which is very expensive). I have wanted to buy the ball since last year but wasn't successful.

I yearn so to buy "my own set of the ball". When I ordered the ball, I felt so happy. I thought I can play in the coming competition, but never did I know that I would never get the chance to play anymore.

When my coach heard I have ordered Boccia ball, he helped me to find a buyer. Within a week, he found a buyer for me, he is also a Boccia player from Sarawak. I feel so thankful to God that He helped me to find a buyer in a short time. 

Though I was broken hearted, as I cannot play Boccia anymore. I'm not able to do anything but accept it..All Paralimpiad games will be my memory for a long time.

 

 

 

New medication for another month

Tuesday, 25 August 2020

 

Two weeks have passed since my last Psychiatrists follow up, so my appointment date 25/9 is here again.

Janice drop mum and me at 10.15 am. When we reached the department, wow I saw there are so many people in the waiting area. I called Janice to bring mum home as there were only a few sitting areas left for mum to sit.

After mum left I waited alone and wrote my journal. Around 45mins later, the counter staff called me to take a blood pressure test, I slowly wheeled myself to the back. Luckily when I reach the back of the room, there was no one taking pressure. So without waiting a lady staff took my pressure.

After I came back to the front, I waited until over noon when a lady doctor called me in. She talked and encouraged, she asked me to compliment myself in the little things I have done.  I ask her if there is any counseling session. She says have, then she wrote a letter for me and ask the counter staff to make an appointment for me on 3/9.

My doctor also asks me to continue the same dosage of the medication for another month. After finish, I came out and see there were people still waiting for the doctor.

I slowly wheeled myself downstairs and to the lobby, When I nearly the pharmacy I felt tired, luckily an Indian lady who passed by saw me and I asked her to pushed me.

Instead of calling Janice to fetch me, I book a Grab car (luckily there was a line for a book the car).  When the driver arrives, I have some problems with the car as the seat was slightly higher. The good Indian driver slightly carries me up to the seat.

Thank you, God, for helping me the whole morning and sending people to help me.