Thursday, 15
July 2021
It has been more than three weeks since I started having a severe spasm. It was when I started an online exercise. I felt really fun and exciting to do, so I kept doing it for a week for half an hour. From then on, every morning after breakfast when I entered my room my body became not well and my spasm slowly attacked me.
The nerve inside my body made me unable
to do anything. Every morning, when I do my toileting on my bedpan I have to
lie down. The most difficult part was to help me onto my bedpan. It was because
both my legs were very stiff and couldn’t bend up. This makes mum and Janice
very difficult to handle me.
Due to my spasm, it took a long time
for me to urine. After urine, mum has to hold my stiff legs so I can pull my
pants up. As I took quite a long to pull my pants up, mum’s hands and body were
painful upon holding my stiff legs.
My spasm lasted for hours until I
have to lunch in bed as I was too stiff to sit up. I feel sad that mum has to
feed me in bed.
My spasm only attacks my legs, both
my hands can move without difficulties, but I have difficulty in breathing.
After my afternoon rest/nap, I’m back
to usual again, but it makes me quite tired.
As my spasm attacks me, I feel
frustrated as most of the days I have lying on my bed. What I did to call to
God to release my spasm.
