Wednesday, June 07, 2006

My last day

I never knew, my probation lasted only 2 months. After getting to know how to deal with the switch board and all the things I have learned. Also all the people I have met, 31st May was my last day of work. Though there were many calls came in, I thought I handled well in time to come. I did make some mistake and people complain about me. And I thought I was slowly doing my best, but it seemed my best wasn't good enough.

When my boss Mr Ong asked to see my dad a week before I resigned, I knew something was wrong. I was quiet annoyed with Mr. Ong as he didn't want to see me personally, but instead he wanted to talk to my dad alone. What I have guess came true, my boss told my dad that I couldn't cope with the job as there were too much stress. Actually, I could do it, only that the calls keep coming in and my fingers wasn't fast enough to catch all the calls. That was why I press the wrong buttons and send to the wrong department . This is why I had some complains.

I was quiet disappointed on losing such a good job. I feel like a loser as I have this great oppotunitely to work in a hotel yet I couldn't cope with the job given to me. What can I do except to accept it.

God gave me 2 only months of experience of working outside. To know how's outside work was like and an eye opener for me and the job wasn't that easy as I think. Sometimes, I wonder why God opens the door, then close it back. There is a reason for it. What I learnt from that 2 months was money cannot buy happiness!

Saturday, June 03, 2006

Copthorne Hotel, here I come Pt 2.

In the beginning, the people there were quiet "cool" towards me. I can understand that because I'm the only disabled working there. As time past, I got to know their name and make friends with them. It's really hard to minggle with other staff during lunch time as my time is short, only 45mins. Going to the toilet already taken 10mins of my time. And I had to wheel up to the 9th floor where the staff canteen is. That already take some of my time, but if I meet with some staff who is going for lunch, they will help wheel me. So, I have to eat fast and go back to work. How do I have the chance to make friends with any of them?

When I'm in difficulty wheeling my chair, some of the staff will come to my aid, but some see me like an "alien". I had one experience, when I enter into the lift going uo 9th floor for lunch. I was in the lift with another guy staff, when the lift opened, he rushed out as if he saw a "ghost". I don't blame him as I know he has never been near to any disabled before.

Most of the staff are helpful, when they see that I have difficulty to take food the will come to help. But most of the time, Kakak Devi who is incharge of the staff canteen will help to take food and make drink for me. She is a really nice lady.

Most of the front office staff (receptionists') are good, kind and patient with me especially the older staff. Rajes is the one who teaches me all operating things because she was the operator before for many years. Few others, are quiet impatient with me. They didn't want to teach me instead they do it themselves. I believe that's call human!

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