Angel pattern

I’m happy that I had finished two of my bookmarks cross-stitch. It took me more than two weeks to finish a pattern. I couldn’t wait to finished it and see the outcome of it. It’s a pattern of a little angle. I was happy when I see it. Now I’m doing the third pattern which is flower.

Remember me this way

Every now and then

We find a special friend

who never let us down


Who understand it all

Reaches out each time you fall

You're the best friend that I've found


I know you can't stay

apart of you will never ever go away

your heart will stay


I make a wish for you

and hope it will come true

that life would be kind

to such a gentle mind

if you lose your way

think back of yesterday

Remember me this way ohhh

Remember me this way


I don't need eyes to see

the love you bring to me

No matter where I go

And I know you'll be there

forevermore a part of me

You're everywhere

I always care

I make a wish for you

And hope it will come true

That life would be kind

To your gentle mind

If you lose your way

Think back of yesterday

Remember me this way

Remember me this way

I'll be right behind your shoulder

watching you

I'll be standing by your side

In all you do

I won't ever leave you

as long as you believe

you just believe

I make a wish for you

and hope it will come true

that life would just be kind

to such a gentle mind

if you lose you way

think back of yesterday

remember me this way

Remember me this way


Dedicate to my best friend

My Fight

Everyday I occupied my time doing many things, yet when I’m sitting in front of my computer and listen to love songs. I feel my life is very empty and I’m sad. I feel lost as I don’t know where I’m heading.

I’m tore between Penang and KL. I can feel my body is here, but spiritually I’m in KL. Everyday I’m thinking of the daily activities and I missed all my friends there. Why do struggle with this feeling everyday? I hate this feeling.

If I’m independent enough, I will take a cab to the airport. Take a flight back to KL and take a cab to my centre. This is my real feeling. Am I crazy thinking of this? I can’t imagine myself, as I had gone through so much difficulties yet I want to go back there. Am I stupid? There are many questions in my mind everyday.

The main reason why I wanted to go back to my Kepong centre is all my friends are very positive thinking and can get the freedom to do what we like. The things which are difficult to handle, they will think of ways to help us and give positive advice. Not like my family members and friends here, they are all very negative and discouraging. It’s not easy to change their mind unless I fight my way through, then I can get a positive life.

I have to fight very hard to get my independence and freedom, if not I will only be trap in my own home.