Life has never been a plain sailing for me. The big ocean wave will hit me now and then. Many times I feel like drowing as I couldn't catch my breath. But yet I still survive!This is how I feel every time my spasm attack me. It's has been a real struggle for me when my "attack" comes. How I wish this "thing" will leave my body and give me an easier life? My spasm would not only pull my limbs but it makes me very tired and weak.
This is how I felt at the present moment. It make all my movement very slow. It's exectly like my brain is jam up. It makes me very frustrated when my attack come. I will be very mad because I cannot do the things I wanted to do. I tried to control myself as I would not break down. Many times I felt like crying, but I stayed strong.
No one can understand how I felt the past 2 week, as I struggled with my spasm until I had to take few days off from work. It was too severe that I had difficulty in breathing. My spirit determined to go on, but my body won't' permit. So I have to give in to my body and rest my body.
I know my condition is so much better compare before. But my greatest wish is for God to heal my spasm complete, so I can improve more in life.
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