Friday, November 28, 2008

Life in Beautiful Gate Centre

It's not easy to start a new life in Beautiful Gate Centre. It's like newly born baby. I have to learn to do everything myself except for bathing, toilet, tranfering to bed and tying my corset. Other than that I have to do everything myself.


I knew that coming to Kuala Lumpur for Independent Living Training may not be easy especially for me as I have to dependent on other people to help me. Since Siew Chin and the staff here are willing to take me into this centre, this is a great oppotunitily to learn to be indendepent.

As a new comer in this centre it's not easy for me, as it need to learn to speak Manderin and to make friends with the other disabled here. I have to slowly befriend with them.
The are many types of disabled friends staying here. Sometimes when I see the them, I feel very sad as there are of few accidents cases or some of them got sickness before they become disabled. But yet they are so happy and accept their life as a disabled.

There is a 13 years old girl quiet the same case as me. She also have severe spasms like me towards the evening. Both of us specially need help in the evening when our spasms attack us. It's very frustrating when my spasm come. I just cannot do anything! But with God's help, I slowly managed it.

Life is tough here. But the people here has given me a chance to enter into their centre, so I have to be brave and courages to go on with life.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

My New Home

I arrive in Beautiful Gate Foundation for the Disabled in Petaling Jaya, Kuala Lumpur on 19 November 2008 at 8pm. I applied to come to this centre for Independent Living Training in April this year without anyone knowledge not my even my parents knowing it.

In beginning beginning of October I got a surprise email from Pastor Sia Siew Chin telling me the Independent Living Training has open and asked to come into the centre as soon as possible. She asked me to keep in contact with her one of her lady staff Ivy Pua. I was very happy when I know they are willing to take me in. I'm so glad The Good Lord has open a door for me.

There were some hurdles and discouragement (specially from my dad) that I had to face before coming into this centre. I ingored all the negetive words from my dad. But instead I prayed with my heart that if it's God's will everything will go smoothly. True enough one problem by another were solved before I came here.

1. I have a big whole at my bottom right tooth which was causing me a lot of pain and I need to do a Root Canel. My mum approached few dentist but they couldn't give me the nearest appointment as they have a lot of patient. She also call to make an appointment for me in the Adventist Hospital but it was all full of patient. My dad and Janice (eldest sister) also searched for other dentist, but all the dates' couldn't suit me either. We prayed and at last we found a Lau Dental Surgery who can do for me Root Canel. So mum make appointment for as soon as possible. We didn't know whether this is a good dentist as none of my family members went there. So I took a chance and I believing God is leading me to the right dentist. I got a good and patient lady dentist. I was really afraid when I first enter the dentist as it was my first time I do Root Canel. I went to this dentist twice and everything was done. My heart was so happy and relief. This Root Canel was very expensive and good aunty Ai Chin sponsor me part of the cost.

2. Second problem was my Genting-KL trip with Eden Handicap Service Centre. Since the staff of Beautiful Gate had call me to this centre beginning of Octorber, I was contemplating whether to join Eden Centre for the trip since it was in middle of November. Mum had an idea that I join the trip then come to this centre. Since mum and I prayed a lot for this problem, I know God is leading us in the right way. I, actually wanted to come to Beautiful Gate earlier but because there is no one to bring me down to Kuala Lumpur.

3. As I'm coming to Kuala Lumpur for IL training and finding a new job. If the welfare find out that I'm not working in Penang, the staff from the welfare will close my bank account in Penang. That really scare me as I know I will lose my EPC (disabled working allowance) and at the same time I'm not working yet in Beautiful Gate Centre. Anyhow, I can't do anything except to leave my problem to God.

4. This is God showing me the way that he is leading to this centre. I have two big bags which are to bring to this centre. I can't seem to find anyone to bring my bags to KL, as I will be going to Genting-KL trip and we can't bring the two bags along with us as it would be very difficult. I pray really hard that God will send someone to KL and bring my bags down there. True enough God answered my prayers. Few days before I go for my trip, Janice suddenly told me Denis is go to down to KL for a day bussiness trip. Praise God that He answer my prayers! So Janice took my bags to down to KLand drop it at Uncle Chong's house.

I know God is opening a door for me to come to Beautiful Gate Centre. I can see all the things He has help me through. God really know my heart desire wanting to learn Independent Living for a long time. Now is the oppotunitely! Anne, don't give up!!!

Friday, November 07, 2008

Independent Living

Independent Living is I have been dreaming of over this one decade. My hope and wish that it will come true in my life. In May, I silencely apply for the Independent Living training at Beautiful Gate Foundation for the Disabled in Kuala Lumpur. I never thought they will take me in until last month when I receive an email from them asking me to going in. Though I'm excited and looking forward to entering into this centre, but the there are some fear within me whether I can cope at this centre as I have never been there before.

This is a challenge for me to be away from my family. I pray and hope I can suceed in my training and not to be a failer. I don't want to be a laughing stock to some people whom I know look down on me. I want to make my family and friends proud of me and I can prove myself that I can make it in life!

Yin Tsang, Annah, Kar Wei, Chin Chin and Yeap, I will surely miss you all especially at night during our chats. I know will be far away, but my heart are very with you all. Remember that! I love u very much. Wish me the best and we will meet when I come back again.

I will especially will miss my darling very very much. Thank you daring for encouraging me to go for this training. Though we will be far apart, our heart will be near. I love you very much.

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