Days, weeks, months passed by
without waiting for anyone. Before anyone knows it, it’s the end of 2012 again.
While people are happy looking forward for the New Year celebration, my heart is
sad because I will be sitting in my room in front of my computer.
Never once in my life have I able
to celebrate New Year Eve outside my house with friends. I have accepted my
fate to be in my home hearing and seeing the fireworks through my house window. I treat this occasion as just any normal day.
This year passes by just as
usual. Everyday I go to my Janice (my sister) house to help her with the
computer work. I learn many things from her.
In the beginning, I thought the work would be very boring. But it turned out to be really interesting.
Middle of March, we have two days
of Boccia competition between Penang and Perak. Even though I’m a BC4 category,
but I was place under BC2 because there were no other BC4 players. After two
tiring and interesting days, I won a gold medal.
Because my spasm continue to
attack my body everyday and certain days it came very severe until I couldn’t
do anything the whole day. In April, I decided to seek help from neurology in
KL. I found his email address online, so I emailed him. I was really happy when
I received his email. He is a Professor. I thought he could help me with my
sickness. We correspond through few emails and he asked me to go down KL to see
him. I was happy Janice was willing to take me down KL together with mum. Since
Denis had meeting, he drove us to University Hospital.
My happiness was short lifted
when the Professor told me, he couldn’t help me. He asked me to see my
neurology in Penang. My heart sank with disappointment because I went all the
way to KL to seek his help and he saw me less than 10mins. I was very sad the
whole day. I even cried in the car,
thinking a Professor couldn’t help my sickness. I tried to accept the fate that
none of the doctors’ could help me.
At the end April, my good friends
gave me some good news, saying his boss wanted to hire me as a part time worker
as a content editor for their company. This company provides jobs for disabled at
home. I was really happy and excited because this is good company wanted to
hire me.
Before I start my job, my friend
taught me how to handle the work. He gave trial work for few day to try for few
days. In the beginning of May I start this job. Even though they called it a
part time job, but to me it’s a full time job because I worked the whole day
and night, 7 days a week. I couldn’t do my job as fast as they wanted but I did
my best and took this job very seriously.
But my happiest lasted only 3
months when they (boss) took off my job without my knowledge. At that moment, I really felt like an idot.
People want me to work they hire me, but
when they don't want me, they just dumped me. Don’t I get any respect? What I
have learnt from the few pass jobs was never put too much trust on people who
hire me. Whatever come and go, take them
as a lesson.
Even though, I took up this job
yet I still helped Janice with her work. That 3 months really took away every negative
things away from my mind. I was happy concentrating on my work instead of thinking
of all the bad things.
After my job was taken away, my
depression and negative thoughts came back to me again. I tried my best to
fight against it.
Beginning of September, my dad
contacted with a virus called “ BELL’S PALSY’. He was admitted in the hospital
for two days for a complete check-up. Before that, my dad had been feeling very
weak. Now he is down with this sickness
and cannot go anywhere or do anything much except rest in his room.
Thinking of
my past, dad has been taking me everywhere I wanted to go. Sometime thinking of
him, I miss him taking me out. I took my dad for granted that until he is sick
than I missed the things he has done for me.
In December I had the most experience taking the Rapid Bus.
I’m happy I took this challenge of going out on public transport together with
my maid.
This is my experience for this year. Everything I did, God was behind me, only that I didn’t see or feel it. Everything
I did, I did my very best. I thank God
for helping me through 2012.
For my other my activities,
do refer to my other posts’.
