Better days to come

Starting this year, I don't consider it to be not that good year. As the past 4 weeks I have been sick. Only this week it self, I have taken 4 days medical leave which I haven't taken such a long medical leave. Maybe my body say "I need a rest". That is where my sickness attacks and that's where I have to rest

I have seen to 2 different doctors last week and it frighten me when I see the medications that the doctors gave me. I have a fobia of taking medication as most of the time when I take the medicine, it will weaken my body. That's why I hate taking them.

It's only a week away before Chinese New Year, I hope and pray to get well soon as possible as I want to enjoy the festive season. But I hope in the coming months, I will get better and stronger.

Up, up in the air

Having cough for the past 3 weeks and the cough develops into flu. The body completely weakened, the mind couldn't fuction well, the eyes cannot open and the feeling is like floating in the air. This feeling is terrible.

That is how I feel for the past 3 weeks. What more when taking my usually dosege of medication (of spasms), it makes me more more drowsy. Some days, after the end of the day's work, I feel like jumping into bed and never get up.

I know this is a common sickness, but to ordinary peop.le, but for me is different. I can hardly get sick because my body resistance is very low and when I take any medication it get me lower. When anyone who has common sickness come near me, it frighten me. As the moment I get sick, it very hard for me to pick again. I never like this feeling, but anyhow it has to come and go. We cannot advoid it.

This is why I haven't been writing for the past 2 weeks. My heart desire to write but my brain couldn't function. The past weeks wasn't that bad as terrible as this few days, the movement in my body limb are very slow. I get frustrated when I have difficulty doing my daily chores and work. But this time, I have to take things slow, until I pick up again.

Dadicated to all my close friends

Thank you to all my friends who was with me in 2005. Thanks for your friendship, support, encourangment and a listening ear and be there for me when I was alone. Thanks for all your emails and sms.

Kuan Aw
Dispite I knew you long ago, only this few years that I get closer to you. Thank you so much for willing to understand, encourage, support and give me a listening ear. I'm really proud to have you as my good friend. You have taught me a lot of things especiallly to fight for our disabled right. Without your encouragement and teaching I wouldn't be who I am right now. I'm saying all this from my heart and I like to say a big THANK YOU to you.

Philip
We have know each other for 3 years and 3 months now. When I first wrote and I never knew that our friendship could last this long. We have been through many obstacles and with all the ups and down it make our friendship stronger. I'm trully sorry for all the things I've said to hurt you. Please forgive me. Even so, you never get mad with me. It's marvellous of you in this way. You never know, but you have improve a lot in your English since the first time you wrote me. I will still be here to help in whatever you need. I hope our friendship will last as long as we live.

Annah
Thanks a lot for keep me company when we go shopping. It's always a pleasure going out you. Without your friendship or company, I don't think I would be going shopping or to movies myself.

Valarie
You are the few able body friend who visited and invited me out for dinner everytime you come out to Penang. You are really a true friend as you always listen to my problem and giving me good advice. I really treasure your frienship and thanks for sharing many things with.

Chee Hoong / Chin Kit
Thanks for keeping in touch with me. Be good boys ok. I know both of you will not read this. I hope to meet you both again if I get choose for the Paralympic. Take good care

Gooybye 2005, Hello 2006 pt 2

Though there were some months when I faced with sickness and my body resistance was down. Thanks to our good GOD that I picked up quite fast and nothing serious happen to me.

I know that I didn't improve much in Eden Centre as I don't have ideas on how to imporve on my work. But thanks to Berite, Madelene and Ah Kok for giving me the change to improved myself and learned new things in seling handicaft things. Dispite I knew I have problem in caculation and handling money yet I still on taken this challenge. I know it would be difficult, but I know in time to come I will be able to handle all the handicaft things. If someone would have given you the oppotunity, you must grabbed hold of it. It's a golden oppotunitely!

In the middle of June, John(my cousin) got married. My whole family attended his wedding service in the church of Our Lady of Sorrow. At lunch time, we adjourned to their house for tea ceremony and lunch. We attended his dinner reception at Gurney Hotel until midnight. The band/singers who played and sing good and lively songs the whole night that we didn't want to leave to place until it ended.

We have few visitor in our house in month of May, Sept, Oct and Nov 05.

Felicty and Mark (my cousin from Australia) came to Penang for their honeymoon in May 05. They spend more than 2 week here and they stayed in a hotel, but they come down everyday as they wanted to visit places. My family and relatives took them around to where they wanted to visit.

Aunty Elsie spent time with us for a week. It was great to see again since her last visit iin 2003. Despite she has gone thru many sickness and operations, yet she is still as strong and health as the last time.

In Oct, dad's old friend Uncle Choong and family came out for 3 days 2 nights. We spent time with them at Sri Sayang Apartment. Unfortunately, it was raining the whole time when they around. We couldn't take them out anywhere except the first night when we took them to the nearby coffee house for dinner. When we were about to finish our dinner, the rain poured so heavily. We took shelter under the CD shop until the rain stopped. Luckily we could go out the next day to Parkroyal Hotel and we took a walk to the next door Golden Sand Hotel. Tina, uncle Choong daughter was a great company to me during our stay there. It was fun having her around.

In middle of Nov, Aunty Nijole and Timothy came out for holiday for more than 10 days. Aunty Nijole stayed with us while Timothy stayed with uncle Hock. All the relatives took turns to them out. I surely believe they had a great time.

In early Dec 05, I went for an interview Gleaneagle Hospital. I asked a friend of mine who is working there whether there were any job vancancy. She didn't reply me so forgot about whole thing until another friend (Anne Choon) suddenly called me by surprise one morning. She told me there was an interview for telephonist job and asked me to go for it. I went, but it was a short interview. After they saw I wrote things quite slow, they asked me to come for a day try out. A week later, I asked Anne C. to make an appointment with them. Believe it on not, on that very day they inteviewed me they already intended not to take me in but yet they lead me to falsed hope. How I knew it, it was Anne C. who asked them to called me. Later she shared the whole story with me. I wasn't disappoited as I knew it wasn't GOD's will for me to work there.

In Dec 05, our Centre had a Christmas Carolling Project. We went to about 20 places eg: shopping malls, hotels and old forks home. we sang 7 to 8 songs or more in one place. Though it was really tiring, but I enjoyed myself as I have never been to some of the places before like few hotels.

I almost forgot the most important thing which is I'm learning to walk now with a walker. With God's help and grace that I will not give up or discourage when things get tough. It's really an efford to take a step forword.

I'm really happy in what I have achived in 2005. It was a good year for me. I really hope in this year 2006 will be a better year for me. I don't expect too much good things to happen. I have to take one day at the time. I pray that GOD will continue be by my side leading me on as what HE wants me to.

Happy 2006 to all who read my blog. May God bless you wherever you may be.

All the photos were taken in the year 2005.