Goodbye 2009

This year has passed again with a blink of an eye. Since November 2008 till April 2009, I was in KL Beautiful Gate Centre. Though life there was very tough, it taught me to be a tougher person physically, emotionally and spiritually. I have learned that living away from family was not easy thing as I have to do most of thing myself and certain things I have to rely on peoples’ help. Though I have only one good friend who helped me a lot, I was happy knowing other disabled friends and learn about their different behavior and attitude

There were many activities and programs for all the trainees. It was bitter sweet moments for me there and it also gave me a chance to see part of KL lifestyle. I was very sad when I left there due to my body condition.

In May another dream of mine came true as I went to Lourdes. I never thought this would happen as it was a long journey, but with God’s help I made it through. It was the most peaceful I have ever been. Though it was a week journey and our stay was only four day. I witness so many things which I have seen before. I truly appreciate the organizers who organize this trip who took for the old, the disabled and the parishioner for the Church of Immaculate Conception. It will be a dream that I will always remember.

Since I came back from Lourdes, I tried to find a job, but I failed. I applied to many places and asked many people but there were no news. It make me feel very frustrated, discouraged, disappointed and angry with myself. I occupied myself at home with cross-stitch, writing and playing games on facebook. Without some income, I feel so terrible, but nothing can be done. I prayed very hard for God to lead me the way.

I pray that 2010 will be a better year for me. And it will be a more challenging year for me. I also pray that I will not give up in achieving my dreams.

To all my friends who support and encouraging me. Thank you… And to my darling, thank you for being there for me and giving me a listening ear whenever I have problems.

When waves are low

I have neglected my “ baby” for the past few months. There is a reason to it. It was because I was feeling very down, so I didn’t want to write too many negative things. Now, I feeling better and am back to my normal self. Sometimes when I think of the past, it made me sad, but I tried my best to ignore it by making myself busy.

I’m happy for the past three months I finished two pieces of my cross-stitch (cushion covers). I have decided not to frame them because if I frame it would be more expensive. Now I’m doing a smaller piece of pattern which I hope to finish soon.

I’m also happy that both my articles came out in the CHALLENGES magazine. I waited for a year before my articles came out and I feel very happy and proud of myself when I saw my stories and photos in the magazine. I’m glad my afford of writing wasn’t a waste of my time. At least I can comfort myself that I have achieved something.

Now I'm keeping myself busy with my cross-stitch, writing and few other things that day and night passes so fast. Now it’s already December. Before we know it, it’s Christmas and New Year.

Thank you all my dear friends for being with me when the waves in my life was very low.
I appreciated it a lot. You kept my spirit going without giving up.