Simple gathering

On Sunday, 11th Nov, we had a simple gathering to celebrate Annah's birthday at Gurney Plaza. Since our group haven't met for the past 2 months, it was nice to see everyone again. There were altogether 8 of us and had lunch at Breek Cafe.

It was the nearest restaurant for us to go to. When we were at the place, we conbined 3 tables together. I notice we were the only group of people at the restaurant. Since it was open air, we enjoyed the breeze and each others company while waiting for the food to be served.

We really enjoyed our lunch. After lunch, few of us went their own way to do their shopping. But most of us went together for window shopping.

After our window shopping and few of them already gone back, I treated Annah at Starbuck because I didn't buy anything for her and we had a nice time together.

I believe Annah was really happy on that day. It was nice get together.

"Happy Birthday Annah!"

Independent Living

What is Independent Living for a severe disabled?

It is not that you can do everything by our own then we consider Independent Living. Many things I may not able to, do, people may think i'm not Independent. The main thing for Independent Living is making our own choice and decision. What we desire, wish and hope to do, we must go for it.

It may be very difficult, but we must fight for our Independence. Many people may discouraged us because we always dependent on others, They don't know the real meaning to "Independent Living"

Life is always tough, but never give up.

My cute rabbit

You cannot imagine this cute animal is my favourite pet.

I've been wanting a rabbit as my pet since years ago, but I will never get to rear it because of my condition. It's hard for me to take care of animals unless someone help me. My mum also don't like animals in the house. When I see rabbits in my relatives house I will be happy.
Our neighbour has a cute white rabbit, sometimes when they will bring it out to the front garden for some fresh air. I will get the chance to see and admire it.

Darkest moment in life

Life has never been a plain sailing for me. The big ocean wave will hit me now and then. Many times I feel like drowing as I couldn't catch my breath. But yet I still survive!

This is how I feel every time my spasm attack me. It's has been a real struggle for me when my "attack" comes. How I wish this "thing" will leave my body and give me an easier life? My spasm would not only pull my limbs but it makes me very tired and weak.


This is how I felt at the present moment. It make all my movement very slow. It's exectly like my brain is jam up. It makes me very frustrated when my attack come. I will be very mad because I cannot do the things I wanted to do. I tried to control myself as I would not break down. Many times I felt like crying, but I stayed strong.

No one can understand how I felt the past 2 week, as I struggled with my spasm until I had to take few days off from work. It was too severe that I had difficulty in breathing. My spirit determined to go on, but my body won't' permit. So I have to give in to my body and rest my body.

I know my condition is so much better compare before. But my greatest wish is for God to heal my spasm complete, so I can improve more in life.

Love is in the air

14th February - Valentine's Day is just another commond day for me. For many, it's such a big occasion.

Though I have a special person in my life now, I still treat Valentine's Day as an ordinary day. My friend and I just wish each other thru sms at midnight.

On that day, our centre got an invitation for luncheon at Sheraton Hotel. 8 staffs from our office went to the luncheon. There were few centres' and homes were invited too. The ballroom was decorated with lovely red balloons hanging in the ceiling and all love songs were played throughout the luncheon. The enviroment in the ballroom was so warm. After lunch, there was a magic show. All the children was so excited and had so much fun with the show. There were also Ang Pow given to all.

I had a nice feeling at that time. Never have I celebrated Valentine's Day before. So it gave me a warm feeling I never had before.

A heavy heart

I feel as if I'm pretending to be a happy person. But the real thing is I'm full of bitterness, hatred, rejection, sadness and emptiness. No one can see or understand that because it's all close up within me. I don't know why but I hide everything inside that I cannot let it go.

It’s very hard for me to express myself and I don’t have the confidence to speak what is in my heart. That is why I keep everything to myself. There are lots of things my heart wanted to say but I feel no one is willing to listen.

Many times when I’m alone I feel like crying but there are no tears. My heart is very heavy as it's full of sadness and emptiness. I want to do is to pour out my feeling to someone, but there is no one who have to patient to listen me as I have difficulty in expressing myself.

I know sometimes we need time to be alone, but when at night draws in I feel very lonely. Every night I will sit infront of my computer and when I put my slow music. I feel very sad and lonely. I want so much to make myself think positive, yet all the negetive things keep pouring in.

I know my good God is very near to me, yet I can't feel His presence. He is the One who can comfort and hold me. I always wish there is someone to hug, hold and lend me a shoulder to cry.